Being struggling with God not as if I had lost touch with God but I had lost confidence, some series of events led to that but this night amidst all the confusion and cloudiness I could see clearly and hear clearly. I realized that the blood of Jesus is more powerful than I can ever imagine, and it saves to the uttermost, that I cannot save myself and that I died when he died and resurrected also when he did, that I am no longer living for myself. I am crucified with Christ, my life is no longer mine. I can’t use it as I desire I am another’s. It also dawned on me that I have access to God’s presence and that I have influence with him, this gives me the sense that i can stand in the presence of God without having a fear of inferiority. I am righteous!

 My access to God’s presence was paid for by the blood of Jesus Christ and the access to God I have is eternal. I also have access to the things of God. It means I can enter the presence of God freely and I can take things in and outta his presence. My access to God is freedom of passage, my access to God makes me to have influence with God.

My influence with God means I can take request into God’s presence and get them granted, I can take my own request and also someone else’s. this gives the mind that God would always grant my request, The blood of Jesus Christ qualifies me for all of this. I know this the more I acknowledge and access God’s presence the more confident I am, the easier it is to get things from his presence, when I get familiar with God’s presence by way of fellowship I begin to exude a confidence that stems from my access and frequency in God’s presence and knowing full well that God will never withhold anything from me makes me more confident, I practically want to throw the weight of the world upon him. God loves us and knows what we need he answers us based on what we need and by his love. Sometimes his love prevents him from being prompt to answer us,  because all we need is never a burden for God. The blood of Jesus is a surplus and it keeps flowing. We should come to God and access is presence with the mind that God can do beyond our abilities, imaginations because God specializes in doing beyond our expectation, if we open our eyes properly and see that God’s surplus is more than our demands, he is ready to waste it all but his love would not allow us to harm us. God won’t be good to us if is goodness would bring harm to us or if being good to us would destroy us, He’ll rather wait till we can handle the good.

I stand on these that every time we ask God, he can do beyond our expectation, I also believe that whatsoever God decides to do is the best, fellowship with God through the Holy Spirit brings increase in the knowledge of God and also makes us to be able to have access to God and discern His Will.

You receive more from God when you trust and obey him, not because your works are what motivates God to bless but because God has already blessed us, God has blessed some principles, so invariably when we obey them we receive the blessings attached to them, that’s why it is preached that when you obey God he’ll bless you when you follow him he’ll reward you, he’s not just rewarding he has rewarded, we just saw it or just received it.