FORGIVENESS...

I've witnessed so many things to put me off and discourage me.

I have always wondered what makes up a broken heart, but really my heart has not really been broken except for once... I remembered asking a girl out but then she was 16 and I was 21 so I told her how I loved her and would love us to be together... But since I was a perfect gentle man I told her I was willing to wait till she was 18. I don't think I have ever falling such in love before, even now.

I was surprised to receive a shock on the eve of her 18th  year in the world that she was in a relationship, and it had been ongoing... I was ripped apart, it tore my heart into shreds, I never was my self, I cried, I was depressed... Because we had shared a lot together... But then that was a long time about seven years. Hmm...

Yea! I have broken someone's heart also... And I'm yet to recover from hurting such a precious soul because I can still feel the heart in my hands... Maybe more than one. But I've learnt my lesson and stopped awakening love.

This year I had an opportunity to toil with several hearts but then I bared the burden of self control so that my emotions could be productively channelled.

I have watched a friend suffer as her heart was severely battered by so called Honourable men. I have

had so many ladies close their heart because they don't trust certain men. Sometimes I'm scared to express my heart because I believe I fall in the category of those certain men. But then this ladies are not to blame for my sufferings...

It is THEM... The men who entered innocently into this hearts and left seeds of bitterness brewing... The extent of the damage can not be quantified. Maybe I invite a friend to share with you what has been done to her. Someone once cursed me and wished me Dead. I never understood, but it was the hurt the pain, Of having your hopes raised and then being dashed the Hope of Having your Perfect Dream and it being taking away.

I never blame them. I do not complain if it takes two years for your heart to heal. But then you need to allow it heal so it might grow seeds of love again.

But I'm here to tell you to let go, let go of the PAST, let go of cruelty (not as if you are cruel but let go of the hurt that cruelty inflicted). Now I knew I was mean and selfish... How can I just move on with life when I see you suffering this much... I feel I'm responsible so I stay stagnant as long as you are stagnant... Cos I've vowed to only move forward when you've found Happiness once again. Can I understand how hurt works. Or the effect the pain has. I do not know how real your pain is. But I knew of one who almost committed suicide for what I did. I feel terrible sometimes cos I'm to blame. In order to become Happy I sacrificed your own Happiness.

But then... now I kinda have an opportunity to make amends. You see I'm willing to wait for as long as it takes for your heart to heal and grow to love again. For then... And only then will I be able to move on. I've long ago giving up on my agenda! Now all effort is geared towards making you recover and discover love once again. The purity of love. I take the blame for your hurt. If a man inflicted this pain then I take responsibility, For it is a man also that will take you away from the pain.

The pain might not disappear but the pain can become powerless i.e have no effect on you again. Jesus specialises in taking men away from their pain if they will allow him, that's why he said come unto me. When you come unto him you are taking away from the pain.

Please Men stop playing with a ladies heart, and Ladies stop playing with a guys heart, enough flirting. Flirting has aroused and crushed many a heart. Be a gentle man go straight to the point. If u realise you don't keep to ur words. Don't make promises. Do not awaken love when u r not ready.

Do not use your beauty to manipulate or get cheap attention.

We are in this together baby... I know you might have lost faith in gentlemen. But I have come to restore faith in the race of men. Especially Sons of Issachar. I love you... I do, I love you with all my heart and I hate to see you suffer it hurts. I know what you are going through.

I've known since... I'm willing to empathise with you but then it is advisable to move on. Can't wait to see you full of life again.

In as much as I wanna carry your burden away there's a brother who does that perfectly well: His name is Jesus.

N.B how can you feel happy with yourself knowing your happiness was built on taking someone else's Happiness. How can you feel Joy when so many hearts have been battered by you. Let's exchange our selfishness for selflessness and our immaturity for maturity. How can you bear to be in the same room with someone who's heart you have broken and act as if nothing's wrong.

My greatest desire is to be someone who God can trust to mend broken hearts. I have seized advocating my agenda(though it's not easy) to pursue other people's agenda. As long as I know what you want, I'll help you get it. I have seen the powerful effect of JOY to a soul, and I'll always like to have that. For me JOY is d greatest gift I can give a man.