Unconditional

Many times I've wondered why I give so much and gotten little in return, in order to proof my Point I went off shouting REDAMANCY, as if I was the only one who's been hurt and who's not being served right. All I wanted was fairness, to get what I have given. is that too much to ask? I don't think so. What kinda mean people do we have nowadays I reasoned! they say something and mean the other thing. My heart had become my greatest asset so I had become careful and conscious who I gave it to, after suffering a considerable number of heartbreaks I reasoned I ought to be careful those that I trust my heart with.

N.B Mind you I suffer heart breaks more from friends than relationships.

My heart became so precious and heavily guarded. But still the pain was there cos I wanted to be understood and loved which is not bad...

But seriously of recent I've been whining about how unfair this whole business with the heart is until with heaviness of heart I stood before the altar of the most high and he let me.

After all my tantrums I seem to hear him ask are u faithful? Rationalising my thought as if he knew I had the right answer, he looked straight @ me are u always faithful, then I paused... Well if it's that I've being unfaithful a couple of times.

As I dwelt more in his presence I seem to see a picture of Jesus also shouting REDAMANCY.

Then I thought if anyone should ask for REDAMANCY it is Jesus. But he doesn't keep a record of wrong, He can't even remember you've hurt him when you've hurt him.

If you claim Agape can't be compared to eros, go and ask a woman who came back from work 6pm and cooks for her husband who would arrive 8pm. And he rejects her food and still yet she cooks again, even though it's not convenient.

How many times have you sinned? You claim life is unfair have you being fare to God. You think God understands, and u continue unfaithfulness.

It might shock you to know even those who chose hell God loves them and he still does. They where the ones who rejected him, not him rejecting the.m remember! For God so loved the world, even those who reject him he still loves.

I wonder how he manages heartache I could learn a thing or two from that. It's precisely my point, God would do anything to save man even when man rejects salvation God still loves a one.

Just recently I was praying and the name of a lady who hurt me came to mind and anger welled up in me and there was this prompting to pray for her so I did, and I found out that I loved her so dearly cos I spent so much time praying for her.  Then I realised in every true believer if we allow God to lead the terms of Unconditionalty is very strong.

UNCONDITIONAL!